Well, it's been quite a while since I updated. Things are going much better for me now since the last entry. I am long over loving T - we're friends but don't talk much, maybe at some point we'll talk more. I have another job now which gives me a guaranteed thirty regular hours a week which is way better than my other job (I am still occasionally doing it) that I couldn't count on at all. And I am slowly getting to know a girl that I may or may not eventually have something with.

Life is actually looking pretty good these days and a lot of that had to do with getting the job. It's nothing wonderful, but I don't hate it. It's not what I want to do long term, but I don't dread going to work in the morning. I figure that's a pretty good start. I am finally enjoying myself now that I have relaxed tremendously, money is still tight but it's not giving me the stress it was before. I am happy now, happy for the most part with where I am in life actually. I know it's not perfect and I want a lot more, a career that I love, a girl that I love, a house that I love, but those will come in time. By golly, I think I have found inner peace, inner happiness. It will ebb and flow at times, but nothing will keep me down for long anymore I hope.

Stay sweet my diaryland friends.