My heart has just been ripped out of my chest. The girl I love with all my heart just broke up with me, even though she still loves me and is happy with me. I'm just not "it" and she didn't want to lead me on to the point of hurting me to where we can't be friends. I can't believe this just happened. I knew we were have a bit of a hard time right now, but I didn't expect this. It hurts so much. I feel like my entire life has just been ruined because our relationship was the only thing I really felt like I had going for me, and now that's gone to. I fail at everything. I thought we were so happy other than a few bumps but now I've just been thrown head first off a mountain. I want to hate her, I want to never want to see her again, I want to say she is a bitch and I can't believe I loved her in the first place but none of that's true. She broke up with me now because she didn't want to hurt me later, and because she wanted to stay friends with me unlike with her other exes who she stayed with long past the time she knew she shouldn't have. She was my girlfriend and bestfriend, now I don't know how to have her as one and not the other. But I don't want her out of my life either. This just hurts so bad. I want to die.