I think after today's events and the way I feel about being here, I have decided the best thing for me is to move. I have been waiting to have a job to move to, but for my sanity that is no longer a must have. I have enough money saved to live off of for two or three months while I job search and my credit card that I can fill to the max if need be which will keep me going longer. But if I go to a large city, where there are actual jobs available, I should be able to find something before the money runs out. And being in a bigger city, away from here, and watching my bank account drain I won't be so selective as to where I apply. I will go, go, go until I have something to pay the bills and if it's not something I want to stay with then I can keep looking, but be able to live in the mean time. Sounds damn good to me. I'm aiming for being in a new place for May 1st. That gives my sister/manager time to go and come back from her holidays, me time to save a bit more, and also a month to keep looking for a job and decide where it is I want to go. Tomorrow I will be sending off a resume for a job in southern BC, would actually be a job I would like to do I think, and I still have another resume at another place south that is being concidered(I hope) so hopefully something will come of one of them. And either way I think this is what I really need to do, no longer just want, but need. Because at the moment, I feel I would be happier homeless than staying here. I just get along a whole lot better with my mother when we don't live together and only talk once or twice a month. Suits me just fine. So keep your fingers crossed for me my friends that I get a job and find that feeling of home that these walls don't give me. I feel good in this decision, nervous, but excited.