(big sigh) Well it looks like things are having the potential of working out between us, though when we will actually get a chance to really talk is another thing by the looks of the schedule she IM'd me. But I'm just going to relax about that knowing that we'll be alright, and that things won't always be this way. We gotta hit the bump in the road that takes us back on up.

And as I sit here alone for a probable two hours before even the possibility of her coming on for a short chat before she has to go again, I smile. Maybe the great goddess in the sky or who ever the listener of star wishes is, had her ear turned to me today. I know that life can't be perfect, pretty far from it when there is a world between you and the one who is your life, but hey, it can be darn close sometimes and I feel soon we'll be back to that again.

What is love anyway when you can't have a big, bad disaggreement/argument thing, whatever you want to call it, and not be able to come back from that to see what you really have with each other. We're not worked out, we've not actually talked in four days, we've emailed somewhat unpleasant emails in that time, we've also each IM'd a nice message, we may still have a big talk ahead of us, but damn I love my gurl so much and I know she loves me back. I overreact and she acts like a bitch(her word not mine) and well what can I say but we both apologize in the end, eventually, and it brings us closer and will in the future work to remind us when we're together, together, we've been through the worst and it's our time for the best.

It's bad getting to this point and there're better ways of getting here, but things like this make me see how much she has become a part of me and how much I would lose if I lost her. It's a swift kick to the head reminder for those times when you don't appreciate the knowledge as much as you should. I love my gurl, plain and simple, and anything but.