Lisa, sometimes I'm not in the best moods when I'm alone or even when we talk; sometimes I wonder if we're trying to do something that is out of our reach and impossible to achieve; sometimes I feel like this can't keep going on because it's too hard; and sometimes I think "soon" takes too long and may never come...then you blow my mind and make me fall in love with you so much more than I ever thought possible and I KNOW everything that we want will come to us and no matter how long down the road we get before that happens, there will never be an end to my love for you and no chance of ever giving that up.

The things you said this afternoon in our short talk, made me fall in love with you again. And what you said about filling in some missing links from the past, you have no idea how much that meant to me to know that you feel that way. Knowing what I do about your past, hurts so deep in my heart to know what you've been through, all that you've faced in your life that can't be changed or forgotten and that I can't make better for you, but to know also that with me and our love somethings that were missing before have been filled for you, has me smiling like a fool for how happy that makes me.

You were so adorable today. Being half asleep as you say you were, showed even more of your sweetness than at other times, and you've always been the sweetest. The things you were saying just went straight to my heart and filled me with such a calm warmth, it all felt like a verbal(written) hug from you. And I kept smiling long after you signed off to go work.

We joke alot about cookie, carrots, being confuzled, and everything else, and I absolutely love that we do, but it's no joke when I say that I love you more than life itself, or that forever is not long enough for how long I want to be with you, and that this, you, our love, having you in my life, is truly a dream come true, and I know it will be even more so when we're together. You have brought into my life and given me something I never conceived of before, a love beyond all imagination, a caring that runs deep into my soul for one person above all others that makes life complex and simply together.

Love doesn't just happen and when it happens it doesn't stop happening. Its work and its reward are combined. And it's impossible to stop falling. I don't know how many times I've stopped myself with a thought, a feeling, thinking 'wow, I just fell in love with her again' and then going back to what I was doing with a lighter feeling in my chest and a smile on my face knowing later today, tomorrow, next week, sometime, I'll stop myself again with that same realization.

Do other people really feel love like this?? I mean, woah. I guess they have to, we aren't the only ones to ever know love, but why is there pain, suffering, war, hatred, violence, and so on, if others have, do, or hope to feel what I feel for you everyday. It's just such a perfect, sweet, knee trembling thing to have coursing through your blood, beating in your heart, filling your thoughts, and caressing your skin, to have an ounce left inside to still cause havoc among others. Love really is the bestest;) thing in the world, and love with you...mmmmmm love with you, is heavenly.

I wanted to thank you my sweetheart for all the things you make me feel; for all the love and happiness you've brought to my life; for opening your heart to let me love you and trusting that I would do so wholeheartedly; for being yourself with me and letting me see into your soul; for being my best friend, my support, and my confidence booster; for loving me for who and how I am; and for all the many, many things I have not said here for which you have made my life a thousand times better.

There has never a day passed that I haven't been greatful in heart and soul for that wonderous day when we met which started us on this, the greatest journey of my life. With you by myside, metaphorically and physically, I will always be walking on air, with my heart in heaven.

XOXO