So it's been a while. I guess a rather long while. I'm still alive and somewhat kickin' but wouldn't ya know, I don't have much new to talk about. My sister's wedding was nice and imagine my surprise but the dress didn't in fact kill me, lol. I think I was too nervous and focused on not falling on my ass while walking down the aisle to care that I was wearing a dress in front of all those people. It turned out well though and my crazy gurl seems to think I looked good in the dress, so that's what matters to me. It's almost been a month now that my sis has been married, time goes so darn fast!

I'm still jobless and nearly moneyless, but at the end of the month I'll be taking on a few hours a week at the old music store so that will cover my current bills at least and maybe in that time I'll get another job as well. I got my fingers crossed.

My gurl is the definate high point of my life. We're still apart, of course, you would have been hearing me yell from the mountain tops that she was here if she was. I don't know how much longer I can stand this distance, somethings gotta change. Two nights in a row my internet didn't work so we couldn't talk so I cried my eyes out because I couldn't be with her. Then I cried more when I gave up trying and went to bed. My heart feels like it's always on the line no matter what, if we can't talk I feel empty, if we have to make it a short night I feel cheated that we got so little time together, and if we get a number of hours to talk I miss her a hundred times more because we have to say goodbye after such a good day. Just to be able to hug her would be so amazing, you have no idea...

Sorry I really don't feel like writing, my gurls having a bad day so I think I'm gonna just go try cheering her up. I love her so much.