Well, I'm home. Got here late last night and I already know it's not going to be good. I think I'm going to end up turning more inward than I already am. It will be nearly immediate also.

I can't think. I'm bored. My head hurts. I haven't talked to Lisa in nearly three full days. I cried last night in bed. I'm on the verge again right now. My life is going no where. I feel doomed. I don't see a bright side to look at. I don't have any independance. I lost my freedom. Finding a job here is a crock of shit. I want to go home but I have no other home:(

I need warm arms around me but I've never felt more alone than I do right now.

I'm such an idiot for thinking quitting the photo job and moving back here would make me happier.

Stupid, stupid, stupid, damn STUPID!!!!!!!

Bye