Well I quit a few days ago. Told the truth as to what I felt when I was there and I was met with disappoinment for going but understanding. I was let off clean and clear, no going back after that shift, and without anyone being mad at me. It was a great relief that it went so well. I'm still not sure what to do about the rest, move or stay, but I'm trying to get another job here so that can be answered for me. If it comes to moving I'll deal with that when it comes, take what few hours I can get at the music store, and look for a second job there to so I can get my own place. It will all turn out in the end. I just have to keep telling myself that and listen when Lisa tells me the same.

I honestly don't know what I would do without her. Not only does she help keep my head on straight, but she also gives me hope and a new perspective, she gives me something to look forward to when I want to forget everything else. I've loved her from the beginning with all my heart, my trust of her has been put to the test a few times and each time comes out stronger, and she's made me feel so much better about myself, but I think I am just now starting to see how good of a friend I also have in her.

It's not always true that your best friend is the person you fall in love with but with her it is. I don't know what I would be more scared of loosing, her love or her friendship, mind you I never want to loose either and to have one with her I think would mean having the other as well, but having her so close to me as a friend means as much to me as having her so close as a lover. I can't always express myself right and I repeat myself a lot to her I think, in thoughts and feelings alike, but everything that means anything to me she's part of it.

She encourages me to reach my goals(writing), she supports me when I'm unsure(quitting). She's in my life, my heart, my soul, my mind, my future. When everything seems to be going wrong with me, she is the one thing that's always going right. When nothing seems to make me feel happy, she does just by coming to talk. And when I feel no one else will understand whatever is in my head at that moment, I know she will at least try and nine times out of ten will understand and ten times out of ten she'll be there for me everyway she can.

It was her kindness and caring that drew me to her when we met and that which I fell in love with, and now it's her deep love and understanding that has made her my best friend to.

And have I mentioned before how absolutely adorable she is?! Gawwwd, she makes me melt and my heart pound and my cheeks hurt from smiling. My feelings for her are all over the scale, from feeling like a little gurl with my first crush and getting that nervous, shy feeling when I find out my crush knows all the way to feeling a deeply contented, happy love that fills my heart and surrounds me in a warmth like I'm being hugged all day long.

She came online just to tell me she had to go do a few things before she could come on and talk. How cute is that. I am feeling in such a good mood right now, I have the BEST gurl in the world who with all her heart loves me back, there's nothing more I could ask for other than to just be with her in person right now. But I know that will come soon, so I'm happy, happy, happy. Lol. I'm scaring myself.

Before I get up and start doing a jig or something and also scare anyone looking in the window, I think I will end this with just one more line:

My world revolves in her eyes and my love resides in her heart