So it seems I have been procrastinating with everything lately, including updating here. But I haven't forgotten about you, course not. And once again you haven't missed much in this oh-so-exciting life of mine. I'm living on my own now and totally loving it, but have yet to find a way to pay my bills, meaning I've been procrastinating with finding a job. For sure, I wouldn't be me if I set right out and did it. No sirrie that just ain't me, I gotta put it off and put if off until I just can't anymore, so then I start stressing about it and thinking I waited too long, and then hopefully in the end it all works out for me. Notice the hopefully cause I really might have left this till it's too late, all the college students and university students will probably be back home now for the summer and been looking for summer employment since getting back while I sat on my ass thinking about getting a job, and they now took em all. But there's one in the paper that I will look into tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed for me okay. I need money to pay bills, I really don't want to move back home, not after experiencing the free life. Free but costly!

So dear reader, what have you been doing lately? Have you visited my closet_confessional? You might find it slightly more interesting than this diary, though I of course have been putting off updating that as well so, well, that'll happen at some point.

I got really depressed tonight, for like half an hour and then while I was writing my girl an email telling her about it she signed on and just like that I was better. That girl can affect me without a single word, it's totally amazing...she's totally amazing. And she's raising her baby sister, which I completely respect and support her for doing. I wish I was there to help her out, but I know one day I will be and we'll be a family. And whatever 'little' problems we face now will all be worth the future that we have together. And little is what they will be because her love heals me and makes the worst of times seem good. And by the way we are engaged. But shhh, no one knows.

Well I have to go to bed so I can be up again in 4.5 hours, oh joy oh bliss, but that's alright, I said I would help someone move and that I shall do. I'll try to update more often, ha, we'll see how that goes. Take care dear reader.