I haven't talked to my girl in like four days. She's been online once while I was sleeping and left a sweet short message, I've sent a short email, but that is not enough. We haven't actually talked in far too long. And I dont know what to think, is she alright? did something happen to her? did something happen between us that I'm unaware of?(I'm certain it's not the last one). I'm getting worried and now tomorrow I'm going home for the long weekend so that limits our chances of meeting online, if she comes on, by a whole lot. I am lost without her even when we are talking regularily, but when we don't talk at all I'm lost and delerious. The love songs that usually make me happen have been making me want to cry, and the fantasies that used to occupy my mind I have limited because they depress me. What am I gonna do if this goes on much longer?

I know we are fine, there are no problems between us, other than the distance of course, but that's neither of our faults. I really need to talk to her to know she is alright, to know that nothing horrible has happened and her absense is just due to being busy with work or she can't get use of a computer or is busy with her life there(we still have to live our lives apart as well as together, I don't expect her to give up her offline life.) If this lasts much longer I think I'll give her a call. We exchanged numbers a while ago but neither of us have used them yet. But I will soon to make sure nothing has happened. I finally fall in love and I can't bare to loose her for anything. I need to see her smile, hear her laugh, feel her touch, hold her in my arms, kiss her sweet lips, go to bed at night beside her and wake up with her still there for the rest of my life. I need to tell her I love her and not just type it.

L, I love you and I will tell you every day for the rest of our lives...please be all right my love...xxx