Four weeks today is the last day of classes. That is a great thought, but at the same time very scary. I'm graduating this year, my program is finished in a month and now I'm suppose to go out and do something with the last two years. What in the world am I going to do? I know what I want to do. Write screenplays. But my program didn't get anywhere close to anything like that. In fact most of this program is nothing that I want to continue doing. Mostly it was business writing, and webpage design type stuff. Business I'm not into at all, the webpage is fun at times, but not what I want to work at. So what I am going to do in a month? When I have more bills to pay and a student loan running out.

I want some kind of job that is at least a little bit related to what I just spent money on, or even better related to what I want as a career. But finding either in this town is very unlikely. So I'm thinking, to start, I will just be back working at some store, hopefully two, I want two jobs so I can save money faster. I'll write on my own, but breaking into the screenwriting business isn't exactly the easiest thing to do. And I'm no good at networking, making connections with people, talking just ain't my thing. Now rambling on and on in emails, or here that's one thing I can do with little effort.

I want the next four weeks to just zoom by, I want time to race for many reasons, but at the same time I want it to go slow so I don't have to think about my financial future so soon. The real world looks like a big, three headed monster with razor sharp teeth just waiting to bite my head off. Oh, bother.

I shall survive though, as long as I have money to pay for internet I will survive anything...that sounds like I am addicted to the net, I'm really not, just addicted to L and need the net to be able to talk to her as much as I do. With her I can survive anything and for her I will work a dozen jobs at some store to save money. There is always a silver lining and she is mine.