I came out to R last night. And this time when I actually got to the point of saying it, it was so easy. I had been talking to both her and my girlfriend on MSN, asking L whether coming out online to my roommate would be a bad idea. She encouraged me to do it becaues she knows I can't easily express myself verbally, she gave me little pushes so I wouldn't chicken out like I have so many times. But actually I didn't do it then, I just couldn't online. But R wanted to have a few drinks so I went upstairs with her, and after she had a buzz going and I was slowly having my drink I just told her I wanted to tell her something and then I said it. No big prepatory speech like the first time. That was just too stressful with M. But R is totally fine with it, and she was one of the ones I was really iffy about. And I made sure this morning that she still remembers, cause she did get quite drunk, and she remembers and we are talking normally so it's all good. I feel so free after I come out. Even now with only two of my friends knowing, I feel great. And it's all because of my gurl. I never would have done it last night without her encouragment. Actually I probably wouldn't have even done it the first time yet. She has really helped me to sort out my life, and to see myself, and she knows just what I am going through so I know I'm not alone in any of this. She is my best friend, and the owner of my heart. I love you baby grrl.